I Remember

Joshua Acevedo

  I remember all the times I was scared shitless that you would decide to  push me off the edge I remember inhaling all of your sweet lies that you loved to mask behind your beautiful smile I remember being scared of you drinking because it always lead to you getting mad at me I remember always accidentally angering you and then you dangling me over that edge I remember those moments you would shut me out and throw me towards the edge I remember struggling with all my strength to pull myself back up and fix things I remember I was terrified to fall, unsure of my identity without you next to me I remember me getting closer and closer to falling off the edge each moment I remember feeling lost and helpless, doing everything I can to not fall off I remember feeling defeated when I finally reached the edge once more I remember somehow I did it and I didn’t fall off like you were hoping I remember I jumped off the edge to escape your deep emotions I remember wasting so much time fearing falling off the edge I remember that my fears made me more miserable  

I also remember landing in a deep ocean

An open world where I can finally roam free

I also remember for the first time feeling happy

I also remember sleeping at night with less worries

I also remember becoming me again